I am the Mistress of un-representation

I am the voice of the invincible loss

you will receive my tears

water the tree – that produces the canes to whip into our minds the loss of a body

water the river – that drowns the babies to tell us our emotions are less than others

water the soil – that grows the food we don’t have the right to eat and feed generations from now

I am the Mistress of un-representation

I am the Mistress of un-representation

I am the body of transparent identity

you will receive my sweat

water the neighbours – who sees you in the corner of their eyes just to ignore your existence

water the community – that accepts to exploit your labour without acknowledging a name

water the nation – that crisscross a wall to label your papers as bare as a raped woman’s womb

I am the Mistress of un-representation

I am the Mistress of un-representation

I am the Mistress of un-representation

I am the life of shadow experience

you will receive my amniotic fluid

water the unborn – who disappears before they even have gotten a name that is real

water the dying – who had lived a life without seeing or talking truths for others to hear

water the souls – whom we have forgotten in the name of modernity, objects and laws

I am the Mistress of un-representation

My words are weaker than yours

My heart is smaller than yours

My existence is based on water

Presented:
The Motherland, Ed. Laura Wachs, Korea 2018
Marronage 2, June 2017
“Country of Loss”, performance reading with Lesley-Ann Brown at Hovedbiblioteket, Copenhagen, 3rd of March 2017

Graphic by Yong Sun Gullach